No-Thingness

This is where I am in my life, in a state of "No Thingness." I've been in this state for several months now. Just in this state of where it seems nothing is happening, that nothing is really going on, it just kind of...is.

This is a somewhat surreal place. Where I'm going through the motions of  life and yet, when I try to get a glimpse of my future, of where I will go from here, I can't see a thing. It is like being in this card, where everything is pitch black and I can't see a damn thing. I don't know what is up, or what is down. Just this floating in suspended animation.

 

Card V: No-Thingness from Osho Zen Tarot

This isn't a bad place, really.

Oh sure, it CAN be a bad place, but it's all in how you perceive this place that will determine how you will feel.

If I were to describe how I viewed life, I would say that life is a play in which everyone is the main character, and everyone that you know is a guest star on your show and you in theirs, and no one has an official script. Every now and then, you find yourself in your dressing room (No-thingness).

You have several choices while in your dressing room.

You can try to come up with some lines you will say for possible scenarios, knowing that this might be a futile exercise because you really have no idea what is going to happen when you do get back out there on the stage. 

You could just worry yourself, pacing back and forth, growing more anxious as you hear the hammering and the saws of the crews working on the mystery set above.

You could consult someone who had a glimpse of your stage for some advice.

Or you could just relax and just take a nap, getting rested up for whatever might happen, trusting that your crew is taking care of things for you.

I have been in varying degrees of all situations and am now starting to relax into just trusting that everything is going to turn out just fine. Do I still get nervous when I don't hear or feel the crew above? Um...YES, but now I've realized that if I call out to my loyal crew above, I am usually greeted with a chuckle and assurances that everything is just fine.

Something amazing is on the horizon for me, this I am sure. What it is, I'm not sure, but it's going to be a fun ride. :o)

We must be willing to get rid of the life we've planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us.

Joseph Campbell